I post all my thoughts into this blog. It really mirror the way I look at the world.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

1. Jangan menunggu bahagia baru tersenyum, tapi tersenyumlah, maka kamu kian bahagia.

2. Jangan menunggu kaya baru bersedekah, tapi bersedekahlah, maka kamu semakin kaya.

3. Jangan menunggu termotivasi baru bergerak, tapi bergeraklah, maka kamu akan termotivasi.

4. Jangan menunggu dipedulikan orang baru kamu peduli, tapi pedulilah dengan orang lain! Maka kamu akan dipedulikan...

5. Jangan menunggu orang memahami kamu baru kamu memahami dia, †âÞi pahamilah orang itu, maka orang itu paham dengan kamu.

6. Jangan menunggu terinspirasi baru menulis. tapi menulislah, maka inspirasi akan hadir dalam tulisanmu.

7. Jangan menunggu proyek baru bekerja, tapi bekerjalah, maka proyek akan menunggumu.

8. Jangan menunggu dicintai baru mencintai, tapi belajarlah mencintai,maka kamu akan dicintai.

9. Jangan menunggu banyak uang baru hidup tenang, tapi hiduplah dengan tenang. Percayalah,. bukan sekadar uang yang datang tapi juga rejeki yang lainnya.

10. Jangan menunggu contoh baru bergerak mengikuti, tapi bergeraklah,maka kamu akan menjadi contoh yang diikuti.

11. Jangan menunggu sukses baru bersyukur. tapi bersyukurlah, maka bertambah kesuksesanmu.

12. Jangan menunggu bisa baru melakukan, tapi lakukanlah! Kamu pasti bisa!

Got it from my friend. But I love that saying.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Pangeran dan Puteri (Part 2)

Pangeranku,
Malam ini kita bertemu
Meskipun hanya di dalam mimpiku
Kita berpegangan tangan
Dan berjalan dalam keheningan
Hatiku terasa hangat dan nyaman.
Pangeranku,
Sesaat ku terjaga
Bayangmu tak kunjung lenyap jua
Aku tak mampu memejamkan mata
Tak rela membiarkan rasa itu sirna.
Pengeranku,
Seorang ksatria sedang berjuang 'tuk merebut hatiku
Namun hatiku telah kuberikan padamu
Kalau memang hatimu adalah milikku
Katakan berapa lama ku harus menunggu?


Note: I've waited so long to get inspired, but when the time comes, the poem, literally, write for itself. Especially made for "someone" (Quoted: Tell me when will you be mine? Tell me quando, quando, quando.)

Friday, July 22, 2005

Jika Seorang Wanita Menangis

Jika seorang wanita menangis dihadapanmu,
Itu berarti dia tak dapat menahannya lagi.

Jika kamu memegang tangannya saat dia menangis,
Dia akan tinggal bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu.

Jika kamu membiarkannya pergi,
Dia tidak akan pernah kembali lagi menjadi dirinya yang dulu.
Selamanya....

Seorang wanita tidak akan menangis dengan mudah,
Kecuali didepan orang yang amat dia sayangi.
Dia menjadi lemah.

Seorang wanita tidak akan menangis dengan mudah,
Hanya jika dia sangat menyayangimu,
Dia akan menurunkan rasa egoisnya.

Lelaki,
jika seorang wanita pernah menangis karenamu,
Tolong pegang tangannya dengan pengertian.
Dia adalah orang yang akan tetap bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu.

Lelaki,
jika seorang wanita menangis karenamu.
Tolong jangan menyia-nyiakannya.
Mungkin karena keputusanmu, kau merusak kehidupannya.

Saat dia menangis didepanmu,
Saat dia menangis karenamu,

Lihatlah matanya....

Dapatkah kau lihat dan rasakan sakit yang dirasakannya?

Pikirkan....

Wanita mana lagikah yang akan menangis dengan murni, penuh rasa sayang,
Didepanmu dan karenamu......

Dia menangis bukan karena dia lemah
Dia menangis bukan karena dia menginginkan simpati atau rasa kasihan

Dia menangis,
Karena menangis dengan diam-diam tidaklah memungkinkan lagi.

Lelaki

Pikirkanlah tentang hal itu

Jika seorang wanita menangisi hatinya untukmu,
Dan semuanya karena dirimu.

Inilah waktunya untuk melihat apa yang telah kau lakukan untuknya,
Hanya kau yang tahu jawabannya....

Pertimbangkanlah

Karena suatu hari nanti
Mungkin akan terlambat untuk menyesal,
Mungkin akan terlambat untuk bilang 'MAAF'!!

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Lumby


I remember the first time I had you
I was only eleven years old
My grandmother gave you to me
She got you as a gift from the bank
I remember naming you Lumby
Because I thought you were a dolphin
But latter on I realize you were a seal
I can't stop smiling because of that "accident".

The first time I hug you I fall in love with you
I can not -and would not- let you go
We've been together for more that ten years
You used to be white, now you became lusterless
My parent try to take you to the laundry
It won't take long before your whiteness became faded
You already lost your red green misletoe
Which used to attached on your red hat
And your red polka dot ribbon already worn out.

Remember when I had to go to the hospital
You went to the hospital with me too
And when I went on domestic vacation
I never forgot to take you along with me
The only time I don't bring you with me is when I went abroad
I scared that airport costum will saw you and tear you apart
Assuming you hold some drugs or else.
Hahaha -chuckle-

We've been share a lot of things
You're there when I'm sad
You're there when I'm confused
You're there when I'm happy
You're the last thing I hug before I sleep
And the first thing I saw when I open my eyes
Thank God He gave me you.

Dedicated to: Everybody who love their bed time pal, esp. Joey with his Hugsy.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

My Confession

15'th February 2005. Well, that's a date I wont forget for the rest of my life I guess. I made a confession. Can't you believe it? Neither can I. I never thought confess my feeling to him. At least not when I'm still in love with him. Let's just say that I know something about "someone". And that "something" make me think.....Life is just too short not tell someone about your true feeling. Besides it never hurt telling (or showing) someone how much you love them.

The answer?? Just as I suspected...he never know that I love him (In fact, he never know that I love him 'til now, he just knew that I like him. That's a lot kind of different). Kinda funny seeing him speechless handling my confession. Haha. Had I'm not too overwhelmed with my own feeling, I'll laugh out loud. You don't have to imagine it, just leave the details to me. I love the way he react to my confession. It didn't change our friendship (I think). I still got him as my friend (if 'best friend' is too much). And I know I never felt this comfortable with someone before. He already knows and understand me, not to mention that he's the one who can handle me. My behaviour, my secrets, my problems, even my feelings to him. I think he handles me pretty well.

It's been a month and a half since my confession, and I fall in love deeper each day. In the new kind of love. He draw me close to God (I know he didn't intend to do that). Because everytime I started to get worried about him, I just prayed to God. And it changed my relationship with God, and with him. Right now all I want is the best for him. On the contrary, what I really don't want is to make him hurt. Even the thought of going out with him -almost- never crossed my mind because I know he will got into so much trouble if we went out together. He had to pick me up and bring me back home, etc, etc. And I really happy for him if he found someone else to love to. I really do. I don't think that I'm just a stupid person anymore. It really need a great heart to love someone and not to expect something in return.

I just hope he sees me as his bestfriend; as someone he could talk to; as someone he could share his problems with; as someone he could turn to; and as someone he could trust. Right now all I can do is to offer him my unconditional love. He doesn't have to change because I love him just the way he is. I sense that he need more of this kind of love in his life. He need a lot of friends that offer him sincere kind of friendship. Oh, and I guess I have to break my promise not to write about him again. Hahah. Well, who knows things will turn up like this.

Monday, February 14, 2005

One Stupid Person on Valentine's Day Coming!!

Stupid Person....Manusia Bodoh....call it anyway you like. Because that's me now. So true if you say that I'm a 'stupid person', especially when I fall in love. Yup...I think it's the 'Big' issue right now (with capital B, red letter, underlined, haha). I'm deeply in love. Kinda surprised me, actually. It's the feeling I never had before. Not with K* and O** (if you've been my friend all this time, I think you should know who they are). This time, I'm even willing to do everything for him. WOW! It did scares me. A lot!!, if I must say. He got the power to influence me terribly and make my heart, and head, in total disarray. And I got to stepped away from him this instance *click* (picturing me clicking my thumb and middle finger, ha) because the image of him controlling my mind kinda make me terrified.

Lately, I had a strange feeling that he is fading away. And I really missed him -so very much miss him- until just a memory of his joke or a picture of him on my mind or a smell of vanilla scent or the sound of his favourite songs made me cries. I looked up to him and see him as a high quality person, sometimes with adoration maybe. Because he's the only person who can inspires me to write some poems (three poems to be exact); the only person I ever sent a valentine message (and not reply to it, as you might guess); the only one who can make me laugh (and cry, if I might say, but that doesn't count because I've been a sentimental person myself); the only one who makes me think about 'the big picture' and makes me grow up, a little bit; the only one who can make me calm just with his words; the only man whom I shared my deepest secret with; the only one person that I've ever get the courage to confess my true feeling to him (guess you know the answer); the only one man who I can shared my love to "Friends" with (since he's been a "Friends" fans himself); and the only one who makes me know what love really felt (tell you the truth, love can be sucks sometimes). And as a stupid person as I could be, I did something that makes me think of him more, like bought myself a cassette from his favourite singer or smell a vanilla scented candle over and over again. But I love my feeling when I'm with him, on very rare occasion. A happy, sad, loving, warm and tender feeling I never know I had before. That's why I just can't stop loving him.

We come from a different world. But, deep inside, I know he's just like me, a person whose longing for some love and care. Not to mention that I'm more than willing to give all that loving and caring he'll ever need, but -sadly- he doesn't see me, at least he doesn't see me as a woman. He only sees me as a child (who trapped into a woman's body maybe). I try to be strong and try harder not to cry everytime I see him with someone else, but many times I allowed myself to get weak and cry.

Well...If he'll ever see this, I think he will know that it's him. And I just want to thank him on this special day. Thanks for the time we had together. Thanks for all that you've become. And thank God our path crossed. Maybe you just were meant to mature the childness in me, no more than that. And if you don't feel the same way as I do, please be kind to pretend that you're not reading this. This writing has been the hardest one I ever write, because I promise myself it'll be the last time I write about him. I decided to let him go. Besides, who knows, someday he'll be back into my head and life. I want to say, "...into my heart" but I can't because he still owns it. I know I'll get over him. As soon as forever is through (just like TOTO in their song "I'll be over you" say). Problem is, I don't know how long "forever" gonna takes. If someday I'll ever write something for someone, I hope it's for someone who loves me back.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Pangeran dan Puteri

Pangeranku,
Adakah hatimu menyadari kehadiranku
Yang memanggil-manggil namamu,
Ataukah dirimu mengenali diriku
Yang pahamimu jauh melampaui batas kata,
Beranikah kau beri kesempatan pada dirimu
'Tuk mengalami rasa hangat dan bahagia yang sederhana
Tanpa ada pertanyaan mengenai tujuan dan makna,
Karena aku menyayangimu dengan sepenuh hatiku
Dan mencintaimu dengan segenap jiwaku.
Sadarkah dirimu bahwa aku adalah seorang Puteri
Yang layak untuk kau kasihi dan dampingi
Tetapi aku mencintai diriku yang mencintaimu
Dan menyadari sebuah rasa cinta yang dewasa
Yang belum pernah kualami sebelumnya.
Rasa cinta yang akan tinggal dalam diriku,
Mengkristal dalam setiap hembusan nafasku
Menghadirkan kenangan indah akan dirimu,
Yang tersimpan rapi di sudut hatiku,
Selamanya....

Note: Inspired to wrote this after I read "Supernova", a novel written by Dee. And no need to guess to whom I dedicated this one....yap, still to "someone".

Friday, December 24, 2004

My Favourite Quotes

"You maybe only one person in the world, but you may also be the world to one person."

"Living on earth is expensive, but it does include a free trip around the sun every year."

"Happiness comes through doors you didn't even know you left open."

"Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once."

"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."

Something To Remember

Always remember,
God knows what He's doing.
He had something
very special in mind
when He created you,
and no matter what happens,
you are an important part
of His plan.
I know sometimes it may not
seem like things are going
the way they're supposed to,
but you can be sure
He knows every detail
of your situation
and is prepared
to guide you through it.


Note: I like this one. Got it from a bookmark. And I believe every single word. :)

Some Times (English Version)

It took some times,
Until I understand your heart
From the look in your eyes

It took some times,
Before I realized that I love you
From deep inside my heart

There are some times,
When you treat me as a friend
While I longing for something more

There are some times,
I tried to hide my feelings
Even deny it from myself

But this time,
As I laying in my bed
I let it all out and started to cry

PS: Still dedicated for "someone" I really care and being a major part of my life lately. Hehehe...gua yakin pada penasaran semuanya. To answer your question: sorry yah...masih R.H.S (baca: rahasia, red). Sebenernya puisi ini english version dari puisi g yang berjudul "Setelah Beberapa Saat". Tapi pas gua baca lagi kayaknya sih beda yah isinya? G sih lebih suka yang english version-nya. What do you think guys?? (December 21'st, 2004)

Setelah Beberapa Saat

Setelah beberapa saat,
Aku mulai mengenalmu dan memahami hatimu
Mengetahui tindakanmu dan mengagumi pendirianmu

Setelah beberapa saat,
Aku mulai menyayangimu dan merindukan suaramu
Memimpikan hadirmu tuk temaniku jalani hari

Setelah beberapa saat,
Aku menahan perasaanku dan berusaha menyembunyikannya
Tapi kusadari bahwa aku hanya takut terluka

Setelah beberapa saat,
Hanya wajahmu yang ada di benakku
Dalam setiap suka dan setiap duka

Setelah beberapa saat,
Kusadari bahwa hanya dengan seulas senyummu
Dapat membuat hariku menjadi cerah

Hingga suatu saat,
Ku tersentak dan tertegun
Saat sadari bahwa ku sungguh mencintaimu

Note : Special for "someone" out there, this poem is dedicated for you. Written: December 21'st, 2004.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Process of Learning

I've learned.... That just one person saying to me, "You've made my day!" makes my day.

I've learned.... That when you're in love, it shows.

I've learned.... That being kind is more important than being right.

I've learned.... That you should never say no to a gift from a child.

I've learned.... That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way.

I've learned.... That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.

I've learned.... That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

I've learned.... That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.

I've learned.... That money doesn't buy class.

I've learned.... That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.

I've learned... That under everyone's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I've learned.... That the Lord didn't do it all in one day. What makes me think I can?

I've learned.... That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.

I've learned.... That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.

I've learned.... That love, not time, heals all wounds.

I've learned.... That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.

I've learned.... That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.

I've learned.... That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

I've learned.... That life is tough, but I'm tougher.

I've learned.... That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.

I've learned.... That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.

I've learned.... That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.

I've learned.... That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.

I've learned.... That I can't choose how I feel, but I can choose what I do about it.

I've learned.... That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.

I've learned.... That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Love Words

What the heart gives away is never gone ...
It is kept in the hearts of others.
~ by Robin St. John ~


Love, you know, seeks to make happy rather than to be happy.
~ by Ralph Connor ~


Romantic love is a passionate spiritual-emotional-sexual attachment between a man and a woman that reflects a high regard for the value of each other's person.
~ by Nathaniel Branden ~


Listening is an attitude of the heart, a genuine desire to be with another which both attracts and heals.
~ by J. Isham ~


Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength,
While loving someone deeply gives you courage.
~ by Lao Tzu ~


Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
~ by 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 ~


For every beauty there is an eye somewhere to see it. For every truth there is an ear somewhere to hear it. For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it.
~ by Ivan Panin ~


Love puts the fun in together,
The sad in apart,
The hope in tomorrow,
The joy in the heart.
~ by Anonymous ~


A goal, a love and a dream give you total control over your body and your life.
~ by John Wayne Schlatter ~


True love begins when nothing is looked for in return.
~ by Antoine De Saint-Exupery ~


In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.
~ by Janos Arany ~


Just because someone doesn't love you
in the way you want them to,
doesn't mean that they don't love you
with all they've got.
~ by Author unknown ~


Smile at each other, smile at your wife,
smile at your husband, smile at your children,
smile at each other--it doesn't matter who it is--
and that will help you to grow up in greater love
for each other.
~ by Mother Teresa ~


Love knows no reasons,
love knows no lies.
Love defies all reasons,
love has no eyes.
But love is not blind,
love sees but doesn't mind.
~ by Author unknown ~


Love is sometimes denied, sometimes lost,
sometimes unrecognized, but in the end,
always found with no regrets, forever valued
and kept treasured.
~ by Unknown ~


Sometimes we let affection,
go unspoken,
Sometimes we let our love
go unexpressed,
Sometimes we can't find words to tell
our feelings,
Especially towards those
we love the best.
~ by Author unknown ~


The most wonderful of all things in life is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a growing depth, beauty and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is a most marvellous thing; it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of divine accident, and the most wonderful of all things in life.
~ by Sir Hugh Walpole ~


Love means to commit oneself without guarantee, to give oneself completely in the hope that our love will produce love in the loved person. Love is an act of faith, and whoever is of little faith is also of little love.
~ by Erich Fromm ~


Think about it, there must be higher love
Down in the heart or hidden in the stars above
Without it, life is a wasted time
Look inside your heart, I'll look inside mine.
~ by Steve Winwood ~


You come to love not by finding the perfect person,
but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
~ by Sam Keen ~


Inside the heart of each and every one of us there is a longing to be understood by someone who really cares. When a person is understood, he or she can put up with almost anything in the world.
~ by Rev Ed Hird ~


True happiness and a fullness of joy can be found only in the tender and intimate relationships of the family. However earnestly we may seek success and happiness outside the home through work, leisure activities, or large bank accounts, we will never be fully satisfied emotionally until we develop deep and loving relationships.
~ by James J. Jones Ph.D.


The most precious possession that ever comes to a man in this world is a woman's heart.
~ by Josiah G. Holland ~


What we need to know about loving is no great mystery. We all know what constitutes loving behavior; we need but act upon it, not continually question it. Over-analysis often confuses the issue and in the end brings us no closer to insight. We sometimes become too busy classifying, separating, and examining, to remember that love is easy. It's we who make it complicated.
~ by Leo Buscaglia ~


Romantic love reaches out in little ways, showing attention and admiration. Romantic love remembers what pleases a woman, what excites her, and what surprises her. Its actions whisper: you are the most special person in my life.
~ by Charles Stanley ( A Man's Touch) ~


From every human being there rises a light that reaches straight to heaven. And when two souls that are destined to be together find each other, their streams of light flow together, and a single brighter light goes forth from their united being.
~ by Unknown ~


It is the things in common
that make relationships enjoyable,
but it is the little differences
that make them interesting.
~ by Todd Ruthman ~


My heart to you is given:
Oh, do give yours to me;
We'll lock them up together,
And throw away the key.
~ by Frederick Saunders ~


There is only one happiness in life: to love and be loved.
~ by George Sand ~


The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or even heard, but must be felt with the heart.
~ by Helen Keller ~


Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom.
Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.
They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same.
~ by Flavia Weedn ~

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Sea of Dreams

It trickles off my tongue Like a little dance
Words of love spill out As if it were by chance
Can you meet me tonight Where the moon meets the sea
We can dance along the waves As the stars sing our melody
We can walk along the beach As the sun shines on a new day
Wondering what our future holds Only destiny can say
We can walk hand in hand Entranced in eternal bliss
We can pledge our love forever And seal it with a kiss
Goodnight my dearest love I'll hold my pillow tight
I'll wish that it is you Until my next dream tonight


PS : It was my friend's poem. I like it so I post it.
PPS : Guys...please dont offer a dream and just take it away. It hurts, still...

Friday, November 05, 2004

Missing You

Dear Grandma,

I really miss you
Miss our piano playing together
Miss your talk
Miss your presence

You're more like a friend to me
But suddenly I found out you had cancer
I cant stop crying
It's like a goodbye

Then I asked God two things:
That we could went to Israel together
And I can be with you when it's time for you to go
He granted me all of those

It's so hard to let you go
But God had decide that He need you more than I do
So I had to let you go
Whispering my last word of love and watch you leave

Dear Grandma,

I cant stop picturing our times together
It's been 2 years now
But I'm still missing you
I really love you

(Dedicated to my beloved grandma, "Till we meet again oma")